One of the wisest piece of advice given to me has been "People Forget !". Ironically this has also been a consistent source of pain for me :P
Oh ! the pitfalls of ego !
Stuck in the dilemma again; and its funny i always find myself out of my depth when i come very close to the person ! Even sadder is the fact that i probably know the genesis point of this dysfunctional streak :|
And yes i hate when i cant help a friend, because i am too busy being scared of skeletons in my own closet.
PS I am glad that I find ego highly overrated. Still i find it exceptionally hard to accept that i am lonely at times. Oh ! the pitfalls of ego ! :S
PPS hypothesis grows stronger, no better time to rant than post 4:00 in morning :S
watching the same movie for the nth time; which is not normal:P; and i cant help grinning at the end :)
I finally disagree with X; u DO need words to survive ! No matter how self sufficiently mature you are, the time will come when you need to communicate; so why prolong the hardship.
I don't think i will regret today. But yes, the contra-philosophy grows stronger; at the risk of my fraudulent esteem.
I have fallen in love with this word. Small word; says a lot.
And suddenly i have started seeing this as the panacea for all my troubles :P
I guess it's part of the escapist persona :)
In fact no, it's not just escapism funda. Everyone needs closure.
They just don't know they want it :)
Disclaimer : THIS HAS NOT BEEN WRITTEN BY ME, SADLY I DON'T KNOW WHO THE AUTHOR IS. IT'S AN EXCERPT FROM A REALLY LONG POST BY HIM/HER.
But then why am i putting this up on my blog !!! Well because it pretty much dethrones my philosophy. I like when i am challenged and forced to think and think i shall :S
The act of having sex, just like eating and excreting is pleasurable. It is also
associated like the rest (eat and excrete) with an 'urge'. It has a purpose.
Reproduction. But we humans are an exception. Most of the times we dont
have sex to reproduce. Then why do we have sex? Why are we capable of having sex
in all seasons and through most of our lives? What is sex when it comes humans?
Dictionaries define sex as "The sexual urge or instinct as it manifests itself
in behavior" or "Sexual Intercourse".
If we are not having sex to reproduce, what are we having sex for? Pleasure?
Give me a break. There are more pleasurable things, like having beer
with your friends, watching cricket, playing volley ball, driving a car, reading
a book, eating food or just being yourself. The cost attached to sex is also super
high. Trying to find a girl, understanding her, establishing a relationship, getting
intimate and maintaining that relationship is an enormous task. The cost of sex
for a girl is almost double; morally, physically and economically. Finding a
prostitute is another enormous task. Find a channel, find a good one,
find a place, prepare contingency plans, spend money, break laws and take
supreme risks with your health. The cost of getting caught is huge. The cost of
catching an unwanted virus is death. In short it would be the riskiest thing you
would ever do. Then why do we and our manifestations (literature, commerce, art)
thrive on sex?
Masturbation would be a more economical and less riskier choice.
Why doesnt masturbation alone suffice?
Love.
I love myself. Isnt it enough?
No, you need someone you love and someone who loves you.
Why?
To share and to support.
To share and to support what?
Your emotions, feelings, victories, losses, health, wealth and life. You need to
be understood, you need to be associated with, you need to be related to and you
need to be listened to.
Why?
Because you are human.
So what?
Everything produced needs to be consumed. Matter has anti-matter.
Motion tends towards rest. In the absence of external forces everything is taken
over by inertia. Universe has a tendency towards balance and inaction. Universe
expands only to collapse. Sun burns only to get cold.
What is that to have with sex?
Balance.
Balance is the key to this universe. Predator has a prey. Everything you have
seen in this universe is a journey towards a balance. Days, nights, rivers,
moon, sky, stars, gravity and nature. Humans have an ability to 'think'. When you
think, you create something that was not there before. It either needs to be
manifested or consumed. Your thought then has a NECESSITY to be expressed and
understood. You are your perception, in other words, you are what you 'think' you
are. So, you need to express yourself and you need to be listened, you need to be
understood and you need to be appreciated.
Why do I need to be appreciated?
Because thats when your thought is 'consumed'. You 'think',
therefore you have a self image. The gap between your self image and your perceived
image is the imbalance. Water runs from the top of a hill to the bottom of a hill
to attain its balanced state. Thats where it feels good. The more the gap between
your self and perceived images the more restless you get. In other words, when your
thought is not agreed upon, you become restless. The less the gap, the better you are.
How do I know my perceived image is the same as my self image?
Appreciation or acceptance. Appreciation is saying to you that you are understood
and agreed upon. Your thought attains its balance. You attain your balance. That
is what you strive for through out your life. Sex is a great way of doing it.
Sex is a form of love.
I am just recalling our previous conversation with a little addition.
I love myself. Isnt it enough?
No, you need someone you love and someone who loves you.
Why?
To share and to support.
To share and to support what?
Your emotions, feelings, victories, losses, health, wealth and life. You need to be understood,
you need to be associated with, you need to be related to and you need to be listened to and
you need to be appreciated.
Why?
Because you are human.
Good bye. Thanks for the info. I am leaving.
Where are you going?
To find mine. By the way, just asking, have you created that magical one for me?
I dont want to waste my life looking for nothing.
Son, thats up to you to find.
PS : After reading it again and again, i find it more and more convincing. One thing i promise, if i am not convinced eventually, i will come up with a retort and it will be a better one :D
I have always had trouble deciding where to draw the line. And as a defense mechanism i always end up way before the limit :)
btw something cool happened today :)
Shit the ship WAS full of holes !
I hate being chosen by elimination rather than selection :S
Muse only would not suffice i guess, need a miracle now :D, 'God's Own Child' has finally been disowned :S ???
And then they tell me being an escapist is cowardly. Balls !! is what i tell them. Give me a reason to fight and i will show how to kick arse :P
Desperate SOS call. Time for a 'Dear God' letter :P
PS: Super-sub finally going to be defunct :( ?
well world doesn't go around because i say it to do so :P
so why on earth should i expect people to do the same, but then again, hope is what sustains people; right ?? well no !! wrong !!!!
hope is what decimates humanity.
rest assured in a rather more optimistic mood i will blah about in support of exact opposite philosophy :P
anyway..(some told me anyways is grammatically wrong :S) bottom line; time for a thought provoking movie.
